fallin' for you - colbie caillat

i don't know but
i think i may be
fallin' for you
dropping so quickly
maybe i should
keep this to myself
waiting 'til i
know you better

i am trying
not to tell you
but i want to
i'm scared of what you'll say
so i'm hiding what i'm feeling
but i'm tired of
holding this inside my head

i've been spending all my time
just thinking about ya
i don't know where to
i think i'm fallin' for you
i've been waiting all my life
and now i found ya
i don't know where to
i think i'm fallin' for you
i'm fallin' for you

as i'm standing here
and you hold my hand
pull me towards you
and we start to dance
all around us
i see nobody
here in silence
it's just you and me

i'm trying
not to tell you
but i want to
i'm scared of what you'll say
so i'm hiding what i'm feeling
but i'm tired of
holding this inside my head

i've been spending all my time
just thinking about ya
i don't know where to
i think i'm fallin' for you
i've been waiting all my life
and now i found ya
i don't know where to
i think i'm fallin' for you
i'm fallin' for you

oh i just can't take it
my heart is racing
the emotions keep spinning out

i've been spending all my time
just thinking about ya
i don't know where to
i think i'm fallin' for you
i've been waiting all my life
and now i found ya
i don't know where to
i think i'm fallin' for you
i'm fallin' for you
i think i'm fallin' for you

i can't stop thinking about it
i want you all around me
and now i just can't hide it
i think i'm fallin' for you

i'm fallin' for you

ooohhh
oh no no
oooooohhh
oh i'm fallin' for you

put your records on - corinne bailey rae

three little birds, sat on my window.
and they told me i don't need to worry.
summer came like cinnamon
so sweet, little girls double-dutch on the concrete.

maybe sometimes, we've got it wrong, but it's alright
the more things seem to change, the more they stay the same
oh, don't you hesitate.

girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
you go ahead, let your hair down
sapphire and faded jeans, i hope you get your dreams,
just go ahead, let your hair down.

you're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

blue as the sky, sunburnt and lonely,
sipping tea in the bar by the roadside,
(just relax, just relax)
don't you let those other boys fool you,
got to love that afro hair do.

maybe sometimes, we feel afraid, but it's alright
the more you stay the same, the more they seem to change.
don't you think it's strange?

girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
you go ahead, let your hair down
sapphire and faded jeans, i hope you get your dreams,
just go ahead, let your hair down.

you're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

'twas more than i could take, pity for pity's sake
some nights kept me awake, i thought that i was stronger
when you gonna realize, that you don't even have to try any longer?
do what you want to.

girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
you go ahead, let your hair down
sapphire and faded jeans, i hope you get your dreams,
just go ahead, let your hair down.

girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
you go ahead, let your hair down
sapphire and faded jeans, i hope you get your dreams,
just go ahead, let your hair down.

oh, you're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow

sunshine

my manager mark calls me sunshine, y'know, as in, "good morning, sunshine!". it's his way of reminding me that he has already battled an hour and a half of traffic and is in the office long before i even hit snooze on my alarm clock.

as a special treat, every once in a while, he will sing "you are my sunshine" to me. he usually loses the words somewhere in the middle of the first verse though, so today he put in the effort to google the full lyrics.

and because we used to sing that song about my brother when we were all kids, i knew most of the words ... until it took a sharp southward turn at louisiana. did anyone else know this song was about crawfish gumbo and jambalaya?

you are my sunshine
my only sunshine.
you make me happy
when skies are grey.
you'll never know, dear,
how much i love you.
please don't take my sunshine away

the other nite, dear,
as i lay sleeping
i dreamed i held you in my arms.
when i awoke, dear,
i was mistaken
and i hung my head and cried.

you are my sunshine,
my only sunshine.
you make me happy
when skies are grey.
you'll never know, dear,
how much i love you.
please don't take my sunshine away.

i'll always love you
and make you happy
if you will only say the same
but if you leave me
to love another
you'll regret it all some day;

you are my sunshine,
my only sunshine.
you make me happy
when skies are grey.
you'll never know, dear,
how much i love you.
please don't take my sunshine away.

you told me once, dear
you really loved me
and no one else could come between
but now you've left me
and love another
you have shattered all my dreams;

you are my sunshine,
my only sunshine.
you make me happy
when skies are grey.
you'll never know, dear,
how much i love you.
please don't take my sunshine away.

louisiana my louisiana
the place where i was borne.
white fields of cotton -- green fields of clover,
the best fishing
and long tall corn;

you are my sunshine,
my only sunshine.
you make me happy
when skies are grey.
you'll never know, dear,
how much i love you.
please don't take my sunshine away.

crawfish gumbo and jambalaya
the biggest shrimp and sugar cane,
the finest oysters
and sweet strawberries
from toledo bend to new orleans;

you are my sunshine,
my only sunshine.
you make me happy
when skies are grey.
you'll never know, dear,
how much i love you.
please don't take my sunshine away.

not proud

i'm sorry, but i cannot deny that i like this song:

when it comes on the radio, i actually turn the volume up. obviously, this is serious.

can we still be friends?

feel that fire - dierks bentley

she wants her nails painted black
she wants the toy in the crackerjack
she wants to ride the bull at the rodeo

she wants to wear my shirt to bed
she wants to make every stray a pet
'n drive around in my truck with no place to go

[chorus:]
but she needs to feel that fire
the one that lets her know for sure
she's everything i want and more
a real desire, and to know i'd walk alone out on the wire
to make her feel that fire

she wants a cabin in the woods
she wants to stand where nobody stood
and someday she wants a couple kids of her own
she wants to make love on a train
and somedays she only wants a break
hey, she wants what she wants, but man i know, i know, i know

[chorus:]
she needs to feel that fire
the one that lets her know for sure
she's everything i want and more
a real desire, and to know i'd walk alone out on the wire
to make her feel that fire
yeah, feel that fire

so as long as there's a breath to take
a smile to share, a prayer to pray
a chance to hold her hand to fan the flame

[chorus:]
she's gonna feel that fire
the one that lets her know for sure
she's everything i want and more
a real desire, and to know i'd walk alone out on the wire
to make her feel that fire
ohh, feel that fire

she wants her nails painted black
she wants the toy in the crackerjack
she wants to ride the bull at the rodeo

picture - kid rock & sheryl crow

[kid rock:]
livin' my life in a slow hell
different girl every night at the hotel
i ain't seen the sun shine
in three damn days

been fuelin' up on cocaine and whiskey
wish i had a good girl to miss me
Lord, i wonder if i'll ever change my ways

i put your picture away
sat down and cried today
i can't look at you while i'm lying next to her

i put your picture away
sat down and cried today
i can't look at you while i'm lying next to her

[sheryl crow:]
i called you last night in the hotel
everyone knows but they won't tell
but their half-hearted smiles tell me somethin' just ain't right

i've been waitin' on you for a long time
fuelin' up on heartaches and cheap wine
i ain't heard from you in three damn nights

i put your picture away
i wonder where you been
i can't look at you while i'm lyin' next to him

i put your picture away
i wonder where you been
i can't look at you while i'm lyin' next to him

[together:]
(sheryl crow) i saw you yesterday with an old friend
(kid rock) it was the same old same 'how've you been?'
(together) since you've been gone my worlds been dark and grey
(kid rock) you reminded me of brighter days
(sheryl crow) i hoped you were comin' home to stay
(sheryl crow) i was headed to church
(kid rock) i was off to drink you away

[together:]
i thought about you for a long time
can't seem to get you off my mind
i can't understand why we're living life this way

i found your picture today
i swear i'll change my ways
i just called to say i want you to come back home

i found your picture today
i swear i'll change my ways
i just called to say i want you to come back home

i just called to say i love you -- come back home

when it rains - eli young band

give me skies of black and blue, the way you make me feel,
give me skies of green and red, cold winds that make it real,
storms are brewing deep within of hurt and loss and pride,
it's good to see the world in pain when i take a walk outside.

[chorus:]
when it rains, i don't mind being lonely, i cry right along with the sky.
when it rains, i don't pretend to be happy, i don't even have to try.
when it rains, some people get down, they're sporting a frown, so i fit right in,
yeah, the sun may brighten your day but if i had my way, i'd take the rain.

i don't care about politics or the hypocrites on my tv,
i'm not mad at the girl who left because she couldn't be with me,
so make up your theories about the scandals and the lies,
start out depressed then everything comes as a pleasant surprise.

[chorus:]
when it rains, i don't mind being lonely, i cry right along with the sky.
when it rains, i don't pretend to be happy, i don't even have to try.
when it rains, some people get down, they're sporting a frown, so i fit right in,
yeah, the sun may brighten your day but if i had my way, i'd take the rain.

when it rains, i don't mind being lonely, i cry right along with the sky.
when it rains, i don't pretend to be happy, i don't even have to try.

[chorus:]
when it rains, i don't mind being lonely, i cry right along with the sky.
when it rains, i don't pretend to be happy, i don't even have to try.
when it rains, some people get down, they're sporting a frown, so i fit right in,
yeah, the sun may brighten your day but if i had my way, i'd take the rain.

johnny & june - heidi newfield

oh there's something 'bout a man in black,
makes me want to buy a cadillac,
throw the top back,
and roll down to jackson town.

i wanna be there on the stage with you,
you and i could be the next rage to
hear the crowd roar,
make 'em want more,
and kick the footlights out.

[chorus:]
i wanna love like johnny and june,
rings of fire burnin' with you--
i wanna walk the line,
walk the line,
'till the end of time.
i wanna love,
love ya that much,
cash it all in,
give it all up,
when you're gone,
i wanna go too,
like johnny and june.

i wanna hold you baby, right or wrong,
build a world around a country song,
pray a sweet prayer,
follow you there
down in history.

[chorus:]
i wanna love like johnny and june,
rings of fire burnin' with you --
i wanna walk the line,
walk the line,
'till the end of time.
i wanna love,
love ya that much,
cash it all in,
give it all up,
when you're gone,
i wanna go too,
like johnny and june,
like johnny and june.

more than life itself,
noone else,
this here is promise.
they don't make love like that anymore,
is that too much to be askin' for?

[chorus:]
i wanna love like johnny and june,
rings of fire burnin' with you --
i wanna walk the line,
walk the line,
'till the end of time.
i wanna love,
love ya that much,
cash it all in,
give it all up,
when you're gone,
i wanna go too,
like johnny and june,
like johnny and june.

and when we're gone,
there'll be no tears to cry,
only memories of our lives,
they'll remember, remember,
a love like that.

just a peak

okay, sometimes i wake up with songs in my head. this morning?

"ab-cdef-ghi-jkl-mnop-qr-stu-vwxyz"

and i don't mean the standard "abc song" that we learn in kindergarten.

one day on sesame street when i was little, big bird sang the alphabet as if it were one word. *that's* what was in my head when i woke up today.

i wanted to let y'all take a peak into my head. but just a peak. don't want to scare you away.

harping

i started taking harp lessons in high school. there was a lady in my ward that played and she taught me, in exchange for babysitting. and it was especially perfect because whenever i babysat, i would get to practice my songs. though ... it also meant that she knew *exactly* how much i was practicing ... hmmm ...

right before my senior year, though, we moved from the bay area to idaho. and my harp teacher did not move with us.

then i graduated from high school. then i went to college. then i graduated from college. then i went on a mission. then i went back to college. and i decided to try harp again. i took one semester of class at byu my last semester and loved it.

so when i moved to l.a., i really wanted to continue. i found a teacher, found a harp to rent, and got started.

so now it's been about 1½ years and i still love it. we just finished my first cd (don't get too excited; my teacher records my songs when i "pass them off". we did a cassette tape first, then a cd.) so because my cd is now full, my teacher gave it to me and i have burned some of my songs to post here soon. hope you'll like them! don't expect too much, i'm still a beginner.

oh -- last week was my harp recital, too. that was a lot of fun. i screwed up a lot -- in ways i have never screwed up before -- but had a good time. thanks, eden & clint, for coming. :)

(you can thank my harp recital for these pics. well, and you can thank eden & clint, too. i guess.)

just got started lovin' you - james otto

you don't have to go now, honey
call and tell 'em you won't be in today
baby, there ain't nothin' at the office
so important it can't wait

[chorus:]
i'm thankful for the weekend
but two days in heaven just ain't gonna do
yes, it's gonna take forever, darlin'
girl, i just got started lovin' you

what's the point in fightin' what we're feelin'
we both know we'll never win
ain't this what we're missin'
let's just stop all this resistin' and give in

[chorus:]
let me wrap my arms around you
you know you don't wanna leave this room
come back and let me hold you, darlin'
girl, i just got started lovin' you

[bridge :]
what can i say
i've never felt this way
and girl, you're like a dream come true
after all the love we've made
it sure would be a shame
if we let this moment end so soon

[chorus:]
so won't you lay back down beside me
girl, just like i know you want to
trust me when i tell you, darlin'
girl, i just got started lovin' you

i ain't gonna stop, oh yeah

[bridge :]
what can i say
i've never felt this way
and girl, you're like a dream come true
after all the love we've made
it sure would be a shame
if we let this moment end so soon

[chorus:]
i'm thankful for the weekend
but two days in heaven just ain't gonna do
yes, it's gonna take forever, darlin'
girl, i just got started lovin' you

come back and let me hold you, darlin'
girl, i just got started lovin' you
mmm, mmm, oh oh
gonna hang out all week long
i've been lovin' kissin' and huggin' baby
mmm, mmm

fé a cada passo - k. newell dayley [trans.]

é maravilhosa e já está aqui, a obra que Deus ordenou.
o vós que embarcais no serviço do Pai, servi-O com todo o fervor.
do mal os profetas e anjos do céu vieram nos livrar;
assim o Cristo virá reinar na terra sobre os Seus.

[chorus:]
com fé a cada passo, seguimos ao Senhor;
cantamos a uma voz com esperança em Seu amor.

os santos valentes, obreiros da paz, que servem em todo lugar,
são fortes e firmes em seu coração, fazendo o trabalho de Deus.
exemplo de fé e virtude eles são; assim devemos ser.
humildemente buscando o Reino e todo o Seu saber.

[chorus:]
com fé a cada passo, seguimos ao Senhor;
cantamos a uma voz com esperança em Seu amor.

se nós desejamos a obra fazer, lancemos a foice com fé.
o campo já branco pra ceifa está; façamos a obra com amor.
assim poderemos de Deus receber a eterna salvação,
a luz de Deus vai brilhar em nós e nos purificar.

[chorus:]
com fé a cada passo, seguimos ao Senhor;
cantamos a uma voz com esperança em Seu amor.

(at choir practice yesterday, the choir director announced that we would be singing this next week for a missionary farewell ["faith in every footstep," in english]. i was so happy to sing this again, even in english, because it was our mission song. oh, good times.)

silver lining - rilo kiley

and i'm not going back into rags or in the hole
and our bruises are coming
but we will never fold

and i was your silver lining
as the story goes
i was your silver lining but now i'm gold

[chorus:]
hooray hooray i'm your silver lining
hooray hooray but now i'm gold.

and i was your silver lining
high up on my toes
well you were running through fields of hitchhikers
as the story goes

[chorus:]
hooray hooray i'm your silver lining
hooray hooray but now i'm gold
hooray hooray i'm your silver lining
hooray hooray but now i'm gold

and the grass it was a ticking
and the sun was on the rise
i never felt so wicked
as when i willed our love to die

and i was your silver lining as the story goes
i was your silver lining but now i'm gold

[chorus:]
hooray hooray i'm your silver lining
hooray hooray but now i'm gold
hooray hooray i'm your silver lining
hooray hooray but now i'm gold

but now i'm gold
but now i'm gold
but now i'm gold

i want it ...

my harp teacher informed me a couple weeks ago that she would be selling one of her harps. yes, the one that i fell in love with earlier this year:

i want it ...

watching airplanes - gary allan

sittin' out here on the hood of this truck looking up
at a caramel colored sunset sky
checkin' my watch doin' the math in my head
counting back words to when you said goodbye
well those runway lights are gettin' brighter

[chorus:]
i'm just sittin' out here watching airplanes
take off and fly
tryin' to figure out which one you might be on
and why you don't love me anymore
right now i'm sittin' out here watching airplanes

i would've lied, could've cried, should've tried harder
done anything to make you stay
i wonder what you'd do if you looked out your window
saw me runnin' down the runway just like i was crazy
that fence is too high, so am i

[chorus:]
so i'm just sittin' out here watching airplanes
take off and fly
tryin' to figure out which one you might be on
and why you don't love me anymore

by now i know you're thirty thousand feet above me
but a million miles away, a million miles away
by now i know i oughtta act like you don't love me

[chorus:]
but i'm just sittin' out here watching airplanes
take off and fly
i'm just sittin' out here watching airplanes
take off and fly
tryin' to figure out which one you might be on
and why you don't love me anymore

yeah, i'm just sittin' out here watching airplanes
go by, by, by
i'm just sittin' out here watching airplanes
baby bye, bye, bye

tu compañía - keith urban

if i could be anywhere with anyone
you know exactly where'd i'd be
under the covers waiting for the sun to rise
your head on the pillow next to me

your feet propped up on that kitchen chair
morning papers scattered all around you
coffee brewing on the cast iron stove
and the pleasure of just knowing that you're mine

[chorus:]
well, i love the way you look
love the way you feel
and the way you roll your eyes
at the kisses that i steal
love the way you stare
when you're staring right at me
i just love your company
oh, yes, i do

arm in arm on some spring sidewalk day
laughing just because it feels so right
wrapped up under the blankets all cozy by the fire
as long as you're here close enough to touch

[chorus:]
well, i love the way you look
love the way you feel
and the way you roll your eyes
at the kisses that i steal
love the way you stare
when you're staring right at me
i just love your company
oh, yes, i do

[chorus:]
well, i love the way you look
love the way you feel
and the way you roll your eyes
at the kisses that i steal
love the way you stare
when you're staring right at me
i just love your company
oh, yes, i do
oh, here we go now

i'm not that girl - wicked

hands touch, eyes meet
sudden silence, sudden heat
hearts leap in a giddy whirl
he could be that boy
but i'm not that girl

don't dream too far
don't lose sight of who you are
don't remember that rush of joy
he could be that boy
i'm not that girl

every so often we long to steal
to the land of what-might-have-been
but that doesn't soften the ache we feel
when reality sets back in

blithe smile, lithe limb
she who's winsome, she wins him
gold hair with a gentle curl
that's the girl he chose
and heaven knows
i'm not that girl ...

don't wish, don't start
wishing only wounds the heart
i wasn't born for the rose and pearl
there's a girl i know
he loves her so
i'm not that girl ...

better than me - hinder

i think you can do much better than me
after all the lies that i made you believe
guilt kicks in and i start to see
the edge of the bed
where your nightgown used to be

i told myself i won't miss you
but i remember
what it feels like beside you

[chorus:]
i really miss your hair in my face
and the way your innocence tastes
and i think you should know this
you deserve much better than me

while looking through your old box of notes
i found those pictures i took
that you were looking for
if there's one memory i don't want to lose
that time at the mall
you and me in the dressing room

i told myself i won't miss you
but i remember
what it feels like beside you

[chorus:]
i really miss your hair in my face
and the way your innocence tastes
and i think you should know this
you deserve much better than me

the bed i'm lying in is getting colder
wish i never would've said it's over
and i can't pretend...
i won't think about you when i'm older
'cause we never really had our closure
this can't be the end

[chorus:]
i really miss your hair in my face
and the way your innocence tastes
and i think you should know this
you deserve much better than me

[chorus:]
i really miss your hair in my face
and the way your innocence tastes
and i think you should know this
you deserve much better than me

(and i think you should know this)
(you deserve much better than me)

teardrops on my guitar - taylor swift

drew looks at me, i fake a smile so he won't see
that i want and i'm needing everything that we should be
i'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
and she's got everything that i have to live without

drew talks to me, i laugh cause it's just so funny
that i can't even see anyone when he's with me
he says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
i wonder if he knows he's all i think about at night

[chorus:]
he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
the only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
he's the song in the car i keep singing, don't know why i do

drew walks by me, can he tell that i can't breathe?
and there he goes, so perfectly,
the kind of flawless i wish i could be
she'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky 'cause

[chorus:]
he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
the only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
he's the song in the car i keep singing, don't know why i do

so i drive home alone, as i turn out the light
i'll put his picture down and maybe
get some sleep tonight

[chorus:]
he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
the only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
he's the song in the car i keep singing, don't know why i do

he's the time taken up, but there's never enough
and he's all that i need to fall into ...

drew looks at me, i fake a smile so he won't see.

an expensive hobby

so yesterday i got to my harp lesson about 15 minutes late -- which is, sadly, kinda the norm -- said my hellos, sat down at the harp and realized ... it was a different harp! well, my teacher has been renting this one out to one of her other students and that student just recently purchased her own harp ... so ... she returned this one to my teacher. it is *beautiful* (pictured at right).

okay. i have been renting a harp that has so far suited my needs just fine (pictured at left, only mine is natural wood, not ebony). it isn't by any means the harp that i want to play forever -- it's a small lever harp -- but it has good string tension (very similar to a pedal harp) and okay sound. i thought.

my harp sounds *nowhere near* as good as my teacher's!

my teacher offered to let me rent this one from her. i would *love* to!! the only problem is ... her harp costs more than twice as much to rent -- actually it's 150% more -- yes, i'm an accountant. and i really need to be saving money because i want to be able to purchase a condo/house/home-of-some-sort sometime soon ...

i was telling my (wise but sometimes annoyingly realistic) sister about it and she quoted for me, "use it up, wear it out, make it do, or do without". then i *really* felt guilty for wanting a new harp ...

especially because what i love about the new harp will not make a lick of difference in my learning and playing. not at this point in the game. i need a harp that i can practice on. the one i have will suffice.

but this one is so preeeettttyyyy! well, yes. but who is gonna see it? i don't play well enough to start booking gigs ... ha! ... so ... i can stick with my little one for now, right?

i *can* dream though ... and so i recently "went shopping" for harps online again. these are some of my favourites, in addition to the one above:

okay, so here's the kicker: the cheapest of these harps is $20k. a good one will cost anywhere from $15k to $35k or more. and especially more if you want one with gold gilding. yikes! so yeah -- think i'm gonna have to wait for "someday" to get mine ... unfortunately ...

cute guy told me i should play the guitar instead. it's cheaper. :P

of course, he also suggested i make a splash in the music world with the electric harp ... check it out! this one is "metallic green". can't you just picture me jamming out on it? playing mary had a little lamb or ode to joy to a sold-out crowd?